Ever wondered what it's like one day when Christmas trees become nothing but a plain old myth one day? Year after year, Christmas is attaining a killjoy holiday status. Gifts are getting more expensive, disasters are happening especially more often on a holiday that's supposedly blessed, and then there's the bitching on Global Warming.
But I digress, I have something to be happy about for the end of this year.
1) I redecorated my room excessively, ditched single beds for double-decker beds. Have a new CPU to be proud of, I swear it's like having your own kid. Overall, my irritable small room looks like it has grown in empty spaces by a couple of sizes.
2) I'm getting the hang of my vocation, I can blissfully function at 100% without my upperstudy's presence. Of course, there's still the sleeping issue which I'm working on. Everyone's there a melting pot of personalities, already known who to avoid and what their habits are stuff like that. It's like a classroom but everyone else is an adult and there are responsibilities given out instead of homework.
3) I'm actually having some aspirations now, it's extremely unexpected of someone of my caliber.
Above all, I am extremely annoyed with the current keyboard I have. The freaking "Ctrl" button is so small, it's one finger sized. MCAHNY - hey that was an interesting word.
23 December 2009
19 December 2009
Revolutions & Resolutions
Year after year, every festive season seems to lack more luster, what's wrong with it, or rather what's wrong with me? I used to enjoy them with such gusto but now they just feel like another day; or a day off if you will for the working population.
Christmas is coming, and within a blink of an eye, another year's coming to an end. Unfortunately, the years ahead looks bleak.
Terrorism.
Global Warming.
Pollution.
Politics.
Need I go on? The tide isn't receding, it's just waiting for that very moment to strike us down totally into irreparable chaos. And then there's that 2012 issue, even if it's the end of the world - are we ready to tell ourselves we lived a good life, and satisfied with a simple demise? Note the fact that nothing's confirmed, but the human being's delusional point of view is stronger than logic and reality.
We all want to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die to get there. In other news, a resolution is at hand. In dire need, to be deadly emphasized...
Stuff I hate about myself:
1) Too honest
2) Easily bothered by guilt
3) Easily "persuaded"
4) Letting others have the best of me
I missed my primary school persona where I was bold and dangerous, I fall and I get up, that is all. My younger self would mocked at me without a care just about now, and naturally my present self would be too embarrassed to retaliate. I wish there was another way to do things without resorting to an extreme contrast of choices and opinions.
After all, that was what shaped the present world now.
Christmas is coming, and within a blink of an eye, another year's coming to an end. Unfortunately, the years ahead looks bleak.
Terrorism.
Global Warming.
Pollution.
Politics.
Need I go on? The tide isn't receding, it's just waiting for that very moment to strike us down totally into irreparable chaos. And then there's that 2012 issue, even if it's the end of the world - are we ready to tell ourselves we lived a good life, and satisfied with a simple demise? Note the fact that nothing's confirmed, but the human being's delusional point of view is stronger than logic and reality.
We all want to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die to get there. In other news, a resolution is at hand. In dire need, to be deadly emphasized...
Stuff I hate about myself:
1) Too honest
2) Easily bothered by guilt
3) Easily "persuaded"
4) Letting others have the best of me
I missed my primary school persona where I was bold and dangerous, I fall and I get up, that is all. My younger self would mocked at me without a care just about now, and naturally my present self would be too embarrassed to retaliate. I wish there was another way to do things without resorting to an extreme contrast of choices and opinions.
After all, that was what shaped the present world now.
12 December 2009
Mortifying
It has been one heck of a ride, and right now I feel I'm moving towards the sky again.
It's illogical all the time to believe that our story and our path has been set and written since birth. Everything is beyond our control, and then there's luck. It's so hard to believe that a decision made would set the cogs of time setting into an inexplicable cycle of no return. Yet for some, we may gain as much as we lose along the way.
Settling into the shoes of my upperstudy so far isn't a walk in the park, he really wasn't joking when he recalled the detestable feelings that settled with him when he started the job. Suddenly, it's almost effortless that it's so scary. Of course, that's not without picking up himself after falling each time. It was an arduous journey but hey, he made it. While he's at the finish line, he looks back, and then it was soon my turn to craft out my own journey.
My roller coaster has crash landed each time, but I also thank luck and second chances each time that I still managed to pull through. I don't normally believe in topics like Horoscopes too, but I'm guessing enduring is a superior trait that all Taurus has, so pretty much, I'll endure it all the way.
No matter what happens.
No matter how bleak the future it may be.
I'll still carry on and keep tryin', until my body is exhausted of it's life. However, in the meanwhile, willpower energizes me. It's so mortifying , it's hard to believe something almost in-existent empowers the human mind beyond it's limits.
I'll live.
It's illogical all the time to believe that our story and our path has been set and written since birth. Everything is beyond our control, and then there's luck. It's so hard to believe that a decision made would set the cogs of time setting into an inexplicable cycle of no return. Yet for some, we may gain as much as we lose along the way.
Settling into the shoes of my upperstudy so far isn't a walk in the park, he really wasn't joking when he recalled the detestable feelings that settled with him when he started the job. Suddenly, it's almost effortless that it's so scary. Of course, that's not without picking up himself after falling each time. It was an arduous journey but hey, he made it. While he's at the finish line, he looks back, and then it was soon my turn to craft out my own journey.
My roller coaster has crash landed each time, but I also thank luck and second chances each time that I still managed to pull through. I don't normally believe in topics like Horoscopes too, but I'm guessing enduring is a superior trait that all Taurus has, so pretty much, I'll endure it all the way.
No matter what happens.
No matter how bleak the future it may be.
I'll still carry on and keep tryin', until my body is exhausted of it's life. However, in the meanwhile, willpower energizes me. It's so mortifying , it's hard to believe something almost in-existent empowers the human mind beyond it's limits.
I'll live.
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