Root canal survivor

I'll be damned if I didn't blog about this, I had my first root canal today (not like there would be more next time but...) and I survived it! But I have to say even after all the beforehand research I did and even consulted a dentist friend, I was pretty nervous while being on the chair. The incessant shivering and shaking was apparent, even the dentist could see it. I tried to tell myself it was nothing, especially with the anaesthetic and all but my body said otherwise.

There was a lot going on during the entire process, even though I was numb to pain but the drilling sounds and sensation were enough to spook me. I tried not to look at the reflection of the glass or plastic from my surroundings that could let me have a clear vision of my mouth. Among all, I think the part where the dentist was cleaning the canal with a screw-like toothpick was the freakiest part.

Even now, the sound scares me. It's somewhere close to nails scrapping across chalkboard.

The entire process took about an hour, give or take and after that it was just the numbing aftertaste to deal with. I still gotta come back within 3 weeks or so to let them check how the tooth's doing. As of now, there's medicine inside the tooth, if my ears didn't fail me I thought I heard Calcium Hydroxide. And yes the bill was hefty - about 390+ dollars, god.

This is why you should always keep your teeth clean, even though the dentist herself said she had no idea how this tooth of mine became like that even with filling. Then there's the wisdom tooth issue but I don't really want to go there...

Tired of it all...

Seems like a lot has happened since I last posted, I'm really very tired over every bits and pieces of things. Sometimes I just want to walk away from it all but I really can't either because it's just hard to escape from or it's shirking of responsibilities. I'm going to NS soon, wonder how life in the barracks will be like, call it a blessing or a curse but I managed to be graded a Pes C9L2, which is not exactly very good.

I need to push myself to blog out my thoughts, sometimes I think that my head does a better job of keeping track of such issues than blogging. But then again, I'm messed up.

No idea what I'm talking about again.