Squashed

Some people have it all easy when it comes to friendships, but I tend to take either seriously though nobody's perfect so we may often commit somewhat sensitive and thoughtless acts out of impulse.

At the end of the day, it gets worst when all of these are combined by immersing yourself within the backlash and conflicts of two people. Left and right are both your hands, you trust both but it's just that each of them have a story against one another.

It's very easy to choose either and give up the other or give up both altogether. However, it takes guts, will and a miracle to still hang on to both together. But I digress, I still want to give a benefit of doubt to no matter who's right or wrong.

At least now I got a new CPU to keep my mind off things, it's all finally coming together. And meanwhile, my work issues are going to a disaster area...

Smart no?

I have the uncanny talent of making people annoyed and fed-up at me.

And yesterday, I found my sight again because I located my glasses. But then again, having glasses doesn't mean that you'll gain wisdom as well.

Rebirth and awkward shopping

I abruptly brought my bank account to a near broke status because I splurged on a new CPU which my house desperately needs. My home desktop gave up on us as of last week, that only goes to show to my dad that you can't be a cheapskate when it comes to electronic goods. I went down to Funan today to went parts shopping with a friend who knows his game. I'm glad to settle on a good deal, the lady boss just gave out discounts like vouchers which eventually brought the final price to $920, which is really worth it.

Now I just lack a decent monitor and a keyboard, can't wait to get rid that has-been desktop out of the house. Plus I realized I needed a new scanner to boot, quality's important and plus it's old - heck it's survived the years from 1998!

And then it comes to awkward shopping, how do ladies actually buy their undergarments without dying of embarrassment? I went to buy underwear, something long overdue on my necessity list. I walked about the aisle for what seems an eternity, grabbed a box and tried to avoid crowds as much as possible as I fidgeted towards the counter. I paid with my ATM card and suddenly my heart skipped a beat when the cashier said "Sir..."

I let out a huge sigh of relief when she pointed out only purchases $10 and above are eligible for ATM card payment. Well at least I won't have to relieve this experience until let's say...a decade or so.

Talk about awkward.

The Way Out

It's really a sad day on Earth if my senior has to lecture me, I don't blame him. Even I can't stand myself, the irate me I have to put up with - sleeping, sloppy work attitude, unable to prioritize, blur...

My job scope is busy, and requires daily attention but yet here I am slacking away in the midst of panic. I have just remembered once again my limit is up till 15th December, if I still don't improve then I'll have to be let go like some pathetic employee.

Between my Ma'am's stern and straightforward reasoning and my senior's desperate and disappointed words, I have no idea whether guilt or acknowledgement is worst. Anything that happens from here down the road is all up to me. I can stick to my way and eventually get off-track, or I follow a stable and safe way till the end of my two years.

It's just like secondary school all over again.

Time of My Life

I am pratically the essence of procrastination, throw in sloth and bad luck, and you basically have a blog lying in the dust. I often complained about lack of juicy stuff to blog about, but even as much as I deny, my life is actually getting a little bit more interesting than it used to be.


Aion's has obtained a place in my heart despite the fact it's just another grind game...but with irresistible game mechanics and elements, plus the intense graphics (which my laptop is unable to process fully enough to appreciate) and soundtrack. I'm so hooked to it, it creates problems in my lives which soon leads to another matter.

My sleeping problem at work.

My Ma'am dropped the bombshell about my work attitude and sleeping issue few weeks back. It's either I brush up or I get out, so far I still managed to accidentally succumbed to the sleep demons but otherwise I'm making up for greater work effort. However, my lousy memory and priorities still grinds her beans sometimes. I am truly the biggest stumbling block should I ever be someone's reliance. I really have to work on it fast because I'm going to hold the fort alone once my senior ORDs in January next year.

NS really changes your lives, although I discover another fact that people can't pronounce my name - my surname specifically correctly to be exact. I'm being called "Tan" instead of "Tay" by people who tried to call me the first time.

1) I have a name tag that clearly says - Tay
2) Neither do I see people of Tay(s) and Tan(s) being mistaken for vice versa

I'm definitely bewildered why I'm the special case out of the lot being christened as "Tan". Not that I want to offend any "Tan"(s) out there, but sheesh, at least get someone's name right. It's not that such a big difference...I think.

My Internet died for the whole of last week, I then was hit with a realization that if a disaster was to occur, I would probably be too busy grieving for life without the Internet rather than concentrate on the bare necessities. Turns out my dad actually forgot to pay the bill, though I must say the ISP was gracious enough to actually provide two months worth of free cable TV and broadband before they cut the line. So there you go, the reason as to why I disappeared from the net.

I took Internet therapy the moment it came back, stressing my body beyond it's limits for two days. Hey, I am an addict.

And suddenly, those are the things I can probably recall for now.