This word seems to revolve around my whole, and not in a general universal time; but more of a personal level. It seems wherever I go, this is the one restriction that encloses me within a confined space. It's so hard to break free without breaking anything else, you want to but then you don't want to.
I often wonder what role does this play in our world, some say sensitivity is a way of protecting yourself. Being sensitive, you're more likely to be on guard when the need arises, be prepared to take lesser pain even if exposed to it. But how this apply to real life and not the natural world? Humans are sensitive to "this and that", would it be hypothetically possible for us to make it through this world without being sensitive.
Indirectly, this post is a rant. Yes, I go in big deep circles to write it all off and to try to understand from a different perspective. Some would say, "why bother?" but I guess like anything out there - I'm just sensitive to something.
27 October 2009
22 October 2009
Accelerate
I'm starting to feel the heat from my job, from an increased workload to more 'less-newbie' treatments, of course, it's only natural eventually this stage progresses because once my senior ORDs - I'm going to fly solo. Right now the only thing that's stopping me from going to full throttle is my OA access card, it has an acronym which unfortunately I'm unable to spell out. What's worst is that my daily nodding off has caught my ma'am's attention to the point that I'm finally given a final warning today.
Anymore would call for an an unavoidable punishment, she's gracious enough to give me so many chances yet I kept blowing it each time. I'm beginning to think Karma really exists, because right after her warning, hours later it happened again but she wasn't around because she took a half day leave. Unfortunately, Karma wasn't going to let me off like that, suddenly out of the blue I was requested to do marshaling duty tomorrow at 5.30am! TGIF tomorrow, and since the whole thing ends about 9 in the morning, that certainly takes some work hours off.
I really have to brush up my act, this aion addiction is spiralling out of control. The only saving grace is when the server goes down for maintenance, like today, where I finally pulled myself to write a decent entry for once.
I'm just a sucker for games with breathtaking graphics, something that Aion seems to overflow with among all the games I have immersed myself in so far. Of course, as an MMORPG, grinding is never far, but this game spices it up with a lot of interesting concepts and mechanics; though some may prove to be a bit annoying. I'm currently playing a Sorcerer class, and the glass cannon concept is pretty well balanced. In exchange for nukes, we don't survive against status effects and melees very well, even with the best of gear.
I'm actually trying my hand at PVP seriously, though I doubt my laptop can handle Aion's intense graphics so I'm switching to a DIY computer soon, still got a few hundred dollars more to reach that goal. It's irony how that my goals are all short-term and deemed as pointless to many, yet my life seems to be whizzing by as I accomplish them one by one.
Keeping up with this speed is really tiring though, I'm amazed how some people can actually extend their reach to long term goals with heavy commitments.
Anymore would call for an an unavoidable punishment, she's gracious enough to give me so many chances yet I kept blowing it each time. I'm beginning to think Karma really exists, because right after her warning, hours later it happened again but she wasn't around because she took a half day leave. Unfortunately, Karma wasn't going to let me off like that, suddenly out of the blue I was requested to do marshaling duty tomorrow at 5.30am! TGIF tomorrow, and since the whole thing ends about 9 in the morning, that certainly takes some work hours off.
I really have to brush up my act, this aion addiction is spiralling out of control. The only saving grace is when the server goes down for maintenance, like today, where I finally pulled myself to write a decent entry for once.
I'm just a sucker for games with breathtaking graphics, something that Aion seems to overflow with among all the games I have immersed myself in so far. Of course, as an MMORPG, grinding is never far, but this game spices it up with a lot of interesting concepts and mechanics; though some may prove to be a bit annoying. I'm currently playing a Sorcerer class, and the glass cannon concept is pretty well balanced. In exchange for nukes, we don't survive against status effects and melees very well, even with the best of gear.
I'm actually trying my hand at PVP seriously, though I doubt my laptop can handle Aion's intense graphics so I'm switching to a DIY computer soon, still got a few hundred dollars more to reach that goal. It's irony how that my goals are all short-term and deemed as pointless to many, yet my life seems to be whizzing by as I accomplish them one by one.
Keeping up with this speed is really tiring though, I'm amazed how some people can actually extend their reach to long term goals with heavy commitments.
14 October 2009
Stupified
Facebook is growing on me, or I'm becoming lazier. Because all my posts seems to be at Facebook length standards, I'm also finding hard to post a decent or insightly post for almost the same reasons.
Well anyway, growing up, I refused to believe how small Singapore is but after two incidents only then I'm convinced by all the hearsay. I thought I saw a secondary school mate on my bus ride home from work yesterday. He looked really different and sported a different pair of glasses so it's really hard to discern, however he always has this distinct look on his face I could never forget. I checked his Facebook account for recent photos to confirm - and bingo, turns out it was him.
Second case, I'm working on documents at my unit, and then I happened to come across a familiar name. What are the odds, that it would be the very same person from my secondary school days as well? To my disbelief, it indeed was him...Singapore seems to be shrinking in my viewpoint as I get older.
It's either I'm knowing it too well, or it's time for me to expand beyond the horizons of this country.
Well anyway, growing up, I refused to believe how small Singapore is but after two incidents only then I'm convinced by all the hearsay. I thought I saw a secondary school mate on my bus ride home from work yesterday. He looked really different and sported a different pair of glasses so it's really hard to discern, however he always has this distinct look on his face I could never forget. I checked his Facebook account for recent photos to confirm - and bingo, turns out it was him.
Second case, I'm working on documents at my unit, and then I happened to come across a familiar name. What are the odds, that it would be the very same person from my secondary school days as well? To my disbelief, it indeed was him...Singapore seems to be shrinking in my viewpoint as I get older.
It's either I'm knowing it too well, or it's time for me to expand beyond the horizons of this country.
13 October 2009
Addiction
I'm crazy over MMORPGs, I don't deny it can sometimes drive me to the brink of madness. Here comes my other love of my life, Aion.
My character which I was totally bummed out after minutes of customization, a special feature of the game that can already get you hooked. And you haven't even begun the gameplay yet!
My character which I was totally bummed out after minutes of customization, a special feature of the game that can already get you hooked. And you haven't even begun the gameplay yet!
04 October 2009
Parity
I am really sickened by the fact, that the good and innocent always seem to die young. Where's the rationale?!
The recent spate of disasters fueled partly by man no doubt has taken the lives of many throughout the Asia Pacific region. And then somewhere in Korea, I just found out one of my favorite illustrators has passed away due to illness. This isn't all justified, especially when it's usually true how they portrayed in movies where the bad either gets away scot free or lives to a ripe old age. It is definitely a myth however, that the justice filled main character usually lives beyond the storyline.
All this started a chain of thoughts within my head, if I were to die one day - would I die with regrets? After all, at my age, I have yet to see and do many things, let alone talk about accomplishments and fulfillment. The only problem I have with this goal setting is that I still don't know what I want, just crossing the bridge only when I've reached it.
What's it going to be? Live a happy life or get busy with accomplishments and goals? And then if we have chosen the latter, does it justify if we passed away suddenly out of the blue? But ironically, dying without a purpose fulfilled in life is also an unfair way to go.
And while people debate what to do with their lives, Mother Nature's is already set in motion to the end. We're ignoring the biggest threat to our existence - Global Warming. Life is always unfair, but we just have to pay attention to everything around. Live life to it's fullest everyday, enjoy it because it happened.
For me, I just want to do something that will make both people around me proud. And of course, protect this world.
The recent spate of disasters fueled partly by man no doubt has taken the lives of many throughout the Asia Pacific region. And then somewhere in Korea, I just found out one of my favorite illustrators has passed away due to illness. This isn't all justified, especially when it's usually true how they portrayed in movies where the bad either gets away scot free or lives to a ripe old age. It is definitely a myth however, that the justice filled main character usually lives beyond the storyline.
All this started a chain of thoughts within my head, if I were to die one day - would I die with regrets? After all, at my age, I have yet to see and do many things, let alone talk about accomplishments and fulfillment. The only problem I have with this goal setting is that I still don't know what I want, just crossing the bridge only when I've reached it.
What's it going to be? Live a happy life or get busy with accomplishments and goals? And then if we have chosen the latter, does it justify if we passed away suddenly out of the blue? But ironically, dying without a purpose fulfilled in life is also an unfair way to go.
And while people debate what to do with their lives, Mother Nature's is already set in motion to the end. We're ignoring the biggest threat to our existence - Global Warming. Life is always unfair, but we just have to pay attention to everything around. Live life to it's fullest everyday, enjoy it because it happened.
For me, I just want to do something that will make both people around me proud. And of course, protect this world.
01 October 2009
Farce
Singaporean celebrities Christopher Lee and Fann Wong finally held their wedding with a bang, but that's not really the major news here. More importantly, Singapore has increased it's electricity bill by 12.5% starting 1 October 2009 onwards!
This is obviously a big fat blow to middle class and poor folks, and to all the gamers as well. Not to mention other industries and people alike who consume electricity on an everyday basis. There are however perks to this, for once we could actually take the issue of conserving electricity seriously now.
I'll quote my ma'am who has made a very interesting observation based on the increase:
"It's ridiculous and companies like Starhub are actually promoting more cable TV channels, how are supposed to comply to watching more TV now?"
Sadly but true, in fact I'm not even thrilled about leaving my laptop overnight now for gaming purposes. Air-cons in my house are being cut down to the minimum, my mum and sister actually slept in the living room yesterday night. It's cooler than being cooped up in a fan blown room, according to them.
I secretly believe the recent F1 event caused the surge, not only is it due to fuel price increases as they mentioned. Singapore has indeed a high standard of living, but everything no doubt comes at a price. Throw in Global Warming and the recent spate of events happening all over the world, it makes you wonder can any price buy a comfort living these days.
This is obviously a big fat blow to middle class and poor folks, and to all the gamers as well. Not to mention other industries and people alike who consume electricity on an everyday basis. There are however perks to this, for once we could actually take the issue of conserving electricity seriously now.
I'll quote my ma'am who has made a very interesting observation based on the increase:
"It's ridiculous and companies like Starhub are actually promoting more cable TV channels, how are supposed to comply to watching more TV now?"
Sadly but true, in fact I'm not even thrilled about leaving my laptop overnight now for gaming purposes. Air-cons in my house are being cut down to the minimum, my mum and sister actually slept in the living room yesterday night. It's cooler than being cooped up in a fan blown room, according to them.
I secretly believe the recent F1 event caused the surge, not only is it due to fuel price increases as they mentioned. Singapore has indeed a high standard of living, but everything no doubt comes at a price. Throw in Global Warming and the recent spate of events happening all over the world, it makes you wonder can any price buy a comfort living these days.
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