Implosion

The human mind is strong, it's intelligence is seemingly endless, yet unlike the human heart, emotions may supply a morale boost or implode itself. The more I think I can handle, the truth is I can't. Every time I try to put one step forward, reality pushes me back two spaces, killing every single strand of hope and effort that was painstakingly put into it.

I'm really tried of G, yet stubbornly, my heart refuses to back off just like that. I am being hurt, but it seems...I am unsatisfied. I tie myself down with unnecessary burden, it's too much to bear. A direct confrontation was also fruitless, generating the same response from G. Whatever G's true intentions began with, it seems obvious where it's tilting to. There seem to be subtle hints, but I still refuse to convince myself so. Does it have to come to a day where the friendship becomes strained to the point of no return?

I have no answer, and no courage to attest to that.

And trouble brews at the office, sleep offers the body rest but it could also be generating another mental stress. The odds don't bode well for me. I got roughly another 7 months or so to go, but my situation doesn't allow me to drag on that long. There has to be an immediate solution, I'm left with zero choices. I could select a suicidal path, but it doesn't help.

A clone of me would help out as a listening ear, I want someone to listen to me seriously and earnestly. I can't take it anymore, I could just drop off everything and run away.